Ups and Downs.  That's it summed up.  BPD takes you up and down and you just pray you spend most of your time somewhere in the middle.

Lately I have been in the middle and I am thankful for that.  Tonight though I feel a bit down.  No clue why either.  The missus got a great job and thing are going along fine....maybe it is the change of her going back to work?  I am clueless about it all....and yes I have been taking my meds like I am supposed to!

It's been toooooo long since I blogged last.  My fault and no one else's!

Writing is cathartic....for me it lets me get thing "out" and then from there they disappear into the aether, which is very nice!

Nothing for me tonight.  My niece is very ill and in ICU.

Just let her be well....

This does give me the image of her parents' heads being so far up their asses that the lump in their throats is their noses.....

So far so good.  The missus is holding up with the loss of her job quite well......but I do think that she is getting discouraged by all the rejection....maybe I am wrong....

Been a busy week at school, but enjoyable enough.

This is the year of the whiny parents.  I cannot abide whining, especially parents of teenagers.  Seriously, it is time to pull them off the teat Mommy.....

I follow the rules, they should want the same.  

OK granted, it is has been too long since my last post...

If the entire European Union can receive a Noble Peace Prize....then all teachers should get one for putting up with whiny students and even whinier parents.  If anything sticks in my craw is the fact that parents (who for the most part are not as educated as I) want to tell he how to do my job.  Good luck!

Also, no one is above the rules.  If there is anything my manic episodes has taught me, is that fact.  We all answer to someone and something.  The rules and the rules are the rules.

If I enforce the rules to everyone, the same way, every time....I cannot be accused of showing favoritism.  Maybe I can be seen as too strict, but I am fine with that....the missus and I are strict my our children and I will not allow some random child less discipline than I give my own.

On to another topic....the missus lost her job.  It sucks, but for some reason I feel optimistic about her chances.  She is smart, driven and well thought of at where she used to work.  I wouldn't be a surprise to me if she was not re-hired there!

Time to admit something....I really haven't been all that good eating here lately.  I have no idea why....but today....10/15 I have been great and will be working out ASAP when I get home!

Someone with BPD can be set off by the most mundane of things.  It is strange that something that bothered you today, did not bother you two weeks ago.  Go figure, right?  Not is not to say that anything has happened to me to set me off, either major or mundane, it is just something I have thought about a lot today.

Being sick SUCKS!  I have strep throat and had to stay home from school today...which gives me time to think...and that is the topic my brain decided on today for contemplation!

OK, so it's been over two weeks since my last post.  It should never have been that long.  Blogging is a good thing and helps me stay on track.  It is too easy to forget to blog when things are going well....and easy to remember during the bad times!

So, yesterday started a 30 day challenge.  Eating right and working out 4 days per week.  I want to be fit in order to live and be able to be an active daddy for my kids!