OK, so it's been over two weeks since my last post.  It should never have been that long.  Blogging is a good thing and helps me stay on track.  It is too easy to forget to blog when things are going well....and easy to remember during the bad times!

So, yesterday started a 30 day challenge.  Eating right and working out 4 days per week.  I want to be fit in order to live and be able to be an active daddy for my kids!

Through all of my trials and tribulations of dealing with my BPD my wife has been strong.  What she also doesn't know, is that she has taught ma a lot of lessons.

In my profession as an educator, I have to deal with a lot of over protective parents.  Admittedly I am strict, tough and expect a lot out of my students.  I make no bones about those facts.  It is my job to prepare them not only academically, but for life as well.

Two things that the missus has taught me is: be objective and professional

I absolutely love my job, I don't even mind the paperwork...crazy right?  Dealing with parents?  Not so much...

I understand a concerned parent, what I do not understand is a parent that molly-coddles.  Yes, I know they are only 14-15 years old, but if they do not start learning how to interact in a demanding academic setting, how will they be in college?  Do they plan to have their mommy call the mean professors?

The most interesting thing about these situations this year, is the fact they simply do not bother me....I have remained objective and professional, if I do that and I have right on my side, then that is all that anyone can ask of me.

I am good at what I do folks.  I love what I do.

I am proud to say that my self-identity is that of a teacher and I swore I would never classify myself by my profession and here I am doing just that and I love it!

The worst thing about teaching is feeling bad for the kids that you cannot reach. It sucks.  

You want to help them, but the truth is that you just cannot save them all.  You do what you can for the students that want to better their lives.

WHAT a WEEK!  I had one of my little darlins' tell me she was going to "Whoop my @ss!".....children, children, children....

I had a day of agitation this week and even though I was scared to, I called my wife and told her.  She says it   made her feel better about things and my BPD.

Also, I have decided to not lose my temper this year.  If I lose it in class, then I have lost control of the class and at that point the trouble makers have accomplished their task!

Still love my job.  I am just fine defining myself as a "teacher"!

Holy Crap!  Talk about a busy exhausting week, but a GREAT week none the less!

I think that I am going to have a great school year....not without a few rascals in class of course.

I ended up with a single class of sophomores and I was apprehensive of course...but I honestly can say that I think I am going to enjoy them!  It is my last class of the day and it will be nice to have something different for that last class.  What more is the fact that I really enjoy the novels and material I am teaching them....that makes it even better.

This week I realized how proud I am of the missus.  She is awesome at being a mom, boss and wife.  Better than I am a husband for sure.  \

I also realized that I am never going to be able to fully make up for all of the bad things I am done.  That really bothers me, but I cannot change things that have already happened.....I must go forward.