Here is the funny thing about me and BDP.....most days it just never enters into my mind that I have a mental illness....and then all of a sudden.....BAM! It hits me....and it reminds me of all the bad things I have done when I was in a manic state.  It's a bitch to know that I have almost lost my family not once....but twice.

I am prepared to do whatever it takes to never lose them.  I love them too much to hurt them anymore.

Now, on to more cheerful thoughts!  It has been one week of eating healthy and proper exercise.  Honestly, I am not seeing all that big of a difference on the scale....but my body just feels different and I do not think it's mental either.  I think it is a good physiological response to a change of life that is only positive!

Also, school started today more or less!  YES!  I love me job!